La Luce

Yikes. No update since October, eh? Better change that.

Life is a swirling vortex of tasks at the moment, most of which I am not sufficiently prepared for. I have too much to think about, and no time in which to actually think about it. I'm tearing along by the seat of pants, so to speak.

But the thing is...it's pretty good. I am very stressed, and finding the right balance of all my responsibilities is definitely a challenge, but...despite my frustrations, I'm pretty happy.

Isn't that, if you'll pardon the cliche, what life is about? Cultivating long-standing friendships, and planting the seeds of new ones. Planning for the future while living in the present. Being so busy you have no chance to be bored. Making mistakes, and then refusing to dwell on them. I like it.

My life is anything but ideal sometimes, and hopefully in a few more years it will take an upswing into delivering some of the dreams I've had for so long. But at the moment, there are a million twinkling lights in the darkness, and the soft brilliance of dawn is approaching. I can feel it. And that light is exactly what I'm waiting for.

Balancing

My blog is not very positive most of the time is it?

I think that's because "When I have to write," it's usually because something traumatic or disconcerting has happened. I don't usually feel like I have to write when everything is going well.

But right now I'm going to note quickly that this summer has been fairly good. Not as ideal as early indications predicted, but not awful either, not by a long shot. So, for now, I feel that my life is somewhat balanced out.

I'm still struggling to trust and be trusted sometimes, and to find the practical application of "hating the sin, but loving the sinner." The sinner most often being myself. But for the most part, things are okay.

That's all for now. Come what may, I suppose, and love it.